johns family

i have to just share this picture with everyone, is it possible that this family can be more beautiful. ... when i first met everyone one after another was just georgous and the nice thing about this family is that they are as nice as they are beautiful... thank goodness Connor has some good genes running through him hahahahahah

get well momma Gray

Connor just loves Momma Gray and last week she was in the hosptial and we were so worried about her but she is doing better now and Connor and I prayed for her and he said amen.... momma gray amen, we are glad she is doing better because Connor just adores her

tough day....

the last two days have been incredibly stressful. yesterday work was overwhelming and we had so much to do and john had wrestling and Connor had to get picked up at a certain time and I had to leave the store with a line of people waiting and I got in my car doing a 100 mph just to get Connor on time and when we got home i just about jumped out of my skin and I snapped at Connor and I felt like the worst mother in the world for yelling at him. I swore i would never raise my children with yelling parents and I did it and i just sat down for a minute and cried so hard. sometimes i wonder why we work so hard and then i think, I want better for Connor I want to be able to take him special places but lord knows days like the last two have challenged me. I called Natalie and told her and it made me feel better that i am not the only mom that has done this before. i am trying to teach myself how to relax does anyone have any insight? i love the whole yoga, breathe in and out theory but in my day to day it just dosent happen. i am off tommorrow so lets see if i can do some stress free living even for just a day....

catching up with friends

I just wanted to comment on something today, I think we all forget in the craziness of our days ,about how important our friends are, I had some great conversations the last few days (as you all know I drive an hour each way to work so i have plenty of time to talk hahah) I was able to catch up with my friend Renee, in nashville and she is the perfect example of a month can go by and you call eachother and time hasnt changed anything, talking to Natalie, makes me just miss her so much more she is my oldest and dearest friend and time and distance will never change our friendship and just having those chats the past few days leaves me inspired because they care and they tell you how it is... i miss my friends so much that live far away and I try my hardest to drop a line in one way or another and say hey i love you.. it makes you realize how blessed you are to have a few good friends and to never take them for granted.

our babysitter....

today when connor got up he said two things to me, "ewica" and snack... our babysitter is Erica and she is incredible. I pondered the thought of going back to work and i was not so sure but we met her and the peace came over me. she has an incredible family and kids and she loves Connor like he was her own and it is a peaceful feeling to go to work and no your child is taken care of... i can understand why Connor would put the two names together she has got to be one of the best bakers in the world she is always coming up with some cool snack. we love her and i hope Erica gets to read this that my son instantly wanted a Ms. Erica snack hahahahhah

best friends

It is amazing the friendship between these boys. they had a ball this week and this is just one of my favorite memories of them and of course sand was everywhere... Allison, Calebs mom was one of the first people I met here and she understood being a new mom and we have been friends since, she is the kind of person who you may not have talked to in a week and you get together and chat like it was yesterday.. she has been a source of comfort for me being here and I am thankful for her more than she even knows... I am blessed

ER-the final season

ok, so i am the only person who still watches ER on thursday nights? i hope someone watched it. they are in the last season and one of my favorite doctors died last night and I cried like my heart was going to break ughh how can shows do that to you? John always laughs at me but I tell him, that is one of the reasons you love me because i am a sap... i hope someone watched it so i can chat with them about it hahahahahahah